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Been over a year...
Hello everyone.
I honestly wasn't prepared to ever update this again and I doubt anyone really remembers me. But for anyone who does and have been wondering what's happened to me in the wake of Black's passing, I'm posting this for that reason.
I am an active BackLoggery member and you can find me here: http://www.backloggery.com/shadowstarexe After Black died, I spent a lot of time collecting and playing games we both loved. I decided to put my energy into that and it did help, although not my wallet so much. I binge spent a lot of money as a means of trying to heal myself...didn't really work. But one bit I did sink a lot of money into th
I'm done with fanfiction
Yeah...abrupt and out of nowhere.
Then again, I suppose I haven't actually been active enough to say this, but what the hell. I don't want anyone thinking I'll be back to writing.
I've lost so much more than my husband in these past few months. I lost my source of inspiration, my muse, my partner and any real motivation I had to get back into writing. Whenever I come up with ideas, I just stare at the page...and the whole pain of losing my husband becomes real and fresh again.
It doesn't help that my main genre of fanfiction was romance. I used to love writing it because I always included elements of my relationship with Black. We had so m
I haven't given up
It has been the most difficult time of my life. That should go without saying.
I never thought ONCE I'd lose the most important person in the world to me. Black was everything in my world and, despite him no longer being here, that hasn't changed.
I don't know if its hit home just yet, but I've been able to bear the pain. However, next week is the cremation. It's going to be so hard to bear it.
That doesn't mean the pain will go away. It never will. We had so much still to do. And now I'm left to do it on my own (most of it, anyway).
I plan on carrying on with our dreams. A close friend of ours gave me this advice: to never give them up.
A great man died today
Copied from Facebook.
To my wonderful husband,
We met ten years ago as teenagers on a writing website for game fans, like us.
A few months later, we became MSN friends and developed an unshakable bond through our mutual interests.
Three years later, we decided to give a big middle finger to 'internet dating stereotypes' and give it a shot ourselves.
Four years later, we finally met face to face and knew that the time we spent talking wasn't in vain. The single week we had in London together proved we were meant to be.
One year later, you came to live in Canada with me. A few months later, we were married.
It was the happiest year of my life.
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