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Journal Entry: Mon Sep 14, 2015, 10:56 PM


So my last entry was back in March, not counting that one I made asking for any donations. I felt embarrassed to even ask for money. Black and I do not need it now, thank frick. 

If you remember me, thank you for remembering me. ;w; If not, HI I'M WHITE.

So I've detailed that Black became a paraplegic back in February and our struggles with all that came with it. On top of that, dealing with enormous hospital bills and the government to help us. How the hell is a person suppose to emerge from all that shit? I almost lost my husband, he loses his legs, the hospital bills poured in because we didn't have the provincial health plan because he wasn't a resident of Canada. 

I once said that 2010 was the worst year of my life. I was wrong. I seriously wish I was right when I said that. This year has been a journey through hell and back and a real struggle to just survive.

Black came back home in May in a wheelchair. Ever since then, I have assumed all his care duties myself because I will NEVER trust those people who come to your homes to 'help' you with care (getting dressed, showers, etc.). After working in a retirement home, I've seen what they can do and how terrible they can be behind closed doors. Word of advice in the future, if you find yourself in a situation where homecare may be needed, DON'T DO IT. If your loved one needs it, DON'T DO IT. DO IT YOURSELF. YOUR LOVED ONE WILL BENEFIT WAY BETTER FROM SOMEONE THEY CAN TRUST, NOT A COMPLETE STRANGER.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand.

Handling his care has become a daily thing, something I adjusted to well enough. I'm practically a PSW now without the training. But I found it so hard to cope with and work at the same time, so I made a hugely painful choice to quit my job. The money Black has and his father sends us will see us through for the time being, but I needed to be back home with my husband and help him get better.

Thankfully, he is improving amazingly. Within four months, he has had much feeling return and he can actually feel his left leg. He can't move it but it's a big difference from what he was feeling before. After he came home from the hospital, he couldn't feel anything down below his injury level. Things are improving more and more and will only get better with time.

And we also succeeded in two more important things. One is we finally got his residency so he is now a legal permanent resident of Canada. Second is we got his health coverage, which gets those damn hospital bills off our backs! 

Sadly, I've had to make another really painful decision to cut someone else out of my life. I won't say who. 

This year has been horrible. We can't even visit my mom anymore because the house is completely inaccessible for Black. My life has revolved completely around Black's health and making sure he recovers. Our days mostly consist of gaming, but I feel so drained that I have little creativity left in me.

Which sucks, considering I was so thrilled to get back to fanfiction. It's not from a lack of trying. But after a day of taking care of a paralyzed person, being the only one who can do the housework, cooking, care, driving, laundry and trying to take care of myself, I have very little energy left. My mom visits from time to time to help us out, but she lives two hours away. I can't ask her to come over all the time.

I'm lurking, but...that's really it. I wish it was more. ._. 

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: The Immortal Memory, The Lost Memory - Vocaloids
  • Watching: Watchmojo
  • Drinking: Berry Pomegranate Juice

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White Christie


Hiya! Welcome to my page of fanfiction and other weird and wonderful things!

My name's White. That's all you're getting for identity. I'm just a weird twenty-some woman who puts up with old people's crap during the day and saves the world by night.

I'm not an artist. I don't draw. My art is really my words. I'm a writer of some renown, especially with Pokemon. However, I do dabble in almost everything I've ever played.

I'm a HUGE video game fan. My husband and I own a total of eight different game consoles and three handhelds. We currently own a Nintendo 64, Gamecube with a Gameboy Player, Wii, XBox 360, PS3, Super Nintendo, original Nintendo and Atari 2600. Our choice of games include, but are NOT limited to Pokemon, Mario, Sonic, Zelda, Castlevania, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, BlazBlue, Lollipop Chainsaw, Left 4 Dead, (some) Resident Evil, Portal, Tetris, Super Smash Bros, Kirby, Wario games, Fire Emblem, Star Fox, MadWorld, World Ends With You, Mega Man, James Bond, Diddy Kong Racing, Catherine and too many more to list.

And yes, I'm happily married. My husband is regiinator. We've been married since February 20, 2014.

My likes: food, sleep, working, music, writing, studying how to be an IT Tech, role playing with my husband, goofing off with our friends, gaming, collecting plushies and other game memorabilia, seeing that my writing makes people happy, inspiring people, staying positive and chasing my dreams.

My dislikes: PEOPLE, people who try and drag me down, people who make fun of me, negativity, stress, drama, summer, bad music, being betrayed by people I thought I could trust and too much more.

Too much for your brain to handle? Feel free to lose some stress by checking out my work. I consider myself a good wish fulfillment writer. I do write fanfiction to please myself, but I make it enjoyable for other fans as well. However, I've been out of touch with writing for over a year now, so my newest works might look rather sloppy and unpolished, compared to some of my past work. Bear with me on this. I'm attempting to get back in the groove.


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Remilia-Moonsparkles Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Are you still active?
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Sorry- the Chrisrtmas present is taking longer than I thought >///<... merry Christmas ;w;...
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Happy Birthday ShadowStar! :iconcake3dplz:
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Happy birthday! :D
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Happy Birthday Star!
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I love your works.
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can do a Pokémonspe.exe creepypasta plz
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Thanks for faving again! ^^
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Happy BDay!!
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happy birthday~
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Happy Birthday, Shadow!:iconsakura-chanplz:
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Happy Birthday.
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Happy birthday! Check my profile, I made you a thing!
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Happy Birthday :3
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(Happy early birthday!)
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thanks for the fave, sweetheart. :3
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Thanks a lot for the fave, i really appreciate it =)
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