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Journal Entry: Sat Dec 26, 2015, 8:31 PM


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It has been the most difficult time of my life. That should go without saying.

I never thought ONCE I'd lose the most important person in the world to me. Black was everything in my world and, despite him no longer being here, that hasn't changed.

I don't know if its hit home just yet, but I've been able to bear the pain. However, next week is the cremation. It's going to be so hard to bear it.

That doesn't mean the pain will go away. It never will. We had so much still to do. And now I'm left to do it on my own (most of it, anyway).

I plan on carrying on with our dreams. A close friend of ours gave me this advice: to never give them up. I'm going to persist with school and get a job again. I'm going to work at reclaiming my happiness, as much as I can try and get back.

Dating? Doubtful. Black will always be my soulmate. I highly doubt anyone will come along and make me want to date them and I'm not a casual type of person.

No, I'm going to focus on what made us both happy: our video game collection. I'm going to start and finish what we both wanted. Black was adamant about finishing Kingdom Hearts, so it's on my wish list for when I get a PS4. And many other games he loved...I'm going to start and finish them. Hell, in the past week, I've completed Perfect Dark, Golden Sun and God of War: Ghost of Sparta. I've also started Final Fantasy 1 (PSP version), God of War: Chains of Olympus and 007 Goldeneye. If I had my Xbox cable, I'd be starting Bioshock.

I will also be traveling back to England for the London Expo once a year. I still have friends in England and I won't lose touch with them. I'm going to be cosplaying, either as canon characters or some original characters. One of my plans is to cosplay as Link and my OC, his daughter named Linika. She looks like him (even wears the same tunic), but she's got long blond hair and has two different eye colours (one blue eye, one red). Reason for that is she's half Hylian, half Twili, but instead of being a perfect halfling, she's only got one trait to show her Twili genes, which is the red eye. Due to this, she can't survive in the Twilight either. She's the next Hero of Time. Obviously, her mama is Midna. 

When I'm finally done with what needs to be taken care of (arranging my apartment, deciding what to do with Black's belongings), I'm going to get a dog for myself. One thing I don't want to be is alone and I've wanted a dog for ages. 

I also have another dream/goal I want to work on. Black and I wanted to start our own YouTube channel and do LPs, readings, reviews, top tens and random nonsense. I still have scripts we penned and I want to move forward with this idea.

Keeping our dreams alive is the only thing I can safely say is keeping me alive and going. Losing Black is a blow you can't even begin to imagine. He was my rock, someone who helped me deal with my own inner demons and turmoil. Now I've got to try and work through this on my own.

I can't let him down.

Out of curiosity, is anyone out there taking commissions? I'd like to get a personalized icon and I would really love to get some artwork done of mine and Black's OC couples. I can pay with points or money via paypal. It would be really great for me to have reminders of the creativity Black and I made together and I'd like to hang them in my apartment. I'd also love to have a logo and banner commissioned for the channel I want to start. If you are open for commissions, or know someone who is, please drop me a note.

Thank you, everyone.

  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Perfect Dark - dayaDyne Central Defection
  • Reading: Things...not really.
  • Playing: Final Fantasy 1 on the PSP

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WARNING, GEEK SIGHTED!!

Hiya! Welcome to my page of fanfiction and other weird and wonderful things!

My name's White. That's all you're getting for identity. I'm just a weird twenty-some woman who puts up with old people's crap during the day and saves the world by night.

I'm not an artist. I don't draw. My art is really my words. I'm a writer of some renown, especially with Pokemon. However, I do dabble in almost everything I've ever played.

I'm a HUGE video game fan. I own a total of eight different game consoles and three handhelds. I currently own a Nintendo 64, Gamecube with a Gameboy Player, Wii, XBox 360, PS3, Super Nintendo, original Nintendo and Atari 2600. My choice of games include, but are NOT limited to Pokemon, Mario, Sonic, Zelda, Castlevania, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, BlazBlue, Lollipop Chainsaw, Left 4 Dead, (some) Resident Evil, Portal, Tetris, Super Smash Bros, Kirby, Wario games, Fire Emblem, Star Fox, MadWorld, World Ends With You, Mega Man, James Bond, Diddy Kong Racing, Catherine and too many more to list.

I was happily married to regiinator. We were married February 20, 2014. He sadly passed away on December 5, 2015. Now I plan on carrying on until we can be together again.

My likes: food, sleep, working, music, writing, studying how to be an IT Tech, goofing off with my friends, gaming, collecting plushies and other game memorabilia, seeing that my writing makes people happy, inspiring people, staying positive and chasing my dreams.

My dislikes: PEOPLE, people who try and drag me down, people who make fun of me, negativity, stress, drama, summer, bad music, being betrayed by people I thought I could trust and too much more.

Too much for your brain to handle? Feel free to lose some stress by checking out my work. I consider myself a good wish fulfillment writer. I do write fanfiction to please myself, but I make it enjoyable for other fans as well. However, I've been out of touch with writing for over a year now, so my newest works might look rather sloppy and unpolished, compared to some of my past work. Bear with me on this. I'm attempting to get back in the groove.
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Pikafan09 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2016
~YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!! Huggle huggle
Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

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CrucifyTheWolf Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry for your loss.
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SilverWolf915 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
so sorry for your loss
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Happy birthday! 
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Are you still active?
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Sorry- the Chrisrtmas present is taking longer than I thought >///<... merry Christmas ;w;...
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Marrone-wolf Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Student Filmographer
Happy Birthday ShadowStar! :iconcake3dplz:
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Happy birthday! :D
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Happy Birthday Star!
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I love your works.
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Hello.
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Hello!
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zawhweh Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Student Artist
can do a Pokémonspe.exe creepypasta plz
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Thanks for faving again! ^^
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Happy BDay!!
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happy birthday~
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Happy Birthday, Shadow!:iconsakura-chanplz:
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Happy Birthday.
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Happy birthday! Check my profile, I made you a thing!
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